Something happened in your practice — once, or a few times — that felt like the real thing. You know what you're looking for. That is the problem.
When you sit now, you are running a comparison operation: is this session that session? The answer is almost always no. And so the session becomes, at some level, a disappointment before it has properly begun.
The peak experience you're trying to recreate was not the product of trying to recreate a peak experience. It arrived when you were not expecting it. You cannot chase your way back to it.
The 30-day track ahead works directly with expectation — not by abandoning it, but by understanding what it is doing and why. You will practice noticing the comparison operation as it begins. Then you will practice letting it run without following it.
This is precise and learnable. It begins now.